as bittersweet as this time of year can be, the one thing i really get into is a good new years resolution.
it seems as though most people i know could care less about making resolutions come january 1. yet for me, i love an opportunity to strive to make some real change in my life. on our drive down to el capitan, b and i began our discussion about what we were gonna shoot for in 2010. b was rearing to go, he already had two resolutions in order. as we talked, i realized i hadn't thought much about it yet. but as i took the time to think about it that day and night, by the 31st i was pretty sure i'd figured out my main one.
i think one of the hardest things about making new years resolutions is knowing that you will likely fail, so i suppose this is my vain attempt to create some accountability for myself.
without further ado... i present the new holly in 2010.
-numero uno- play with my kids more. so what do i do all day at home (which i am increasingly thankful for) when i'm not playing with my kids?
try to stay sane.
i get super covetous of my time throughout the day. if the baby is awake then i need to nurse her, or rock her to sleep, or change her--so i'm to preoccupied to play with oz and lil. but if she's asleep, then i think, 'i can finally fold the laundry or unload the dishwasher, or start making dinner'... so between the housework and the baby, i'm left with little time to play 'truckbabies.' they beg me all day long, so when i finally give in it looks a bit like this.
kids: 'mooooom, please (i added that for effect-rarely do they say please) come play with us. come play babies! come play trucks!'
me: 'okay, just let me finish
kids: 'mom, come on!'
me: 'fine, okay, lets play truckbabies'
this is the part where i go in their room, get ozzy's trucks out and start discussing what rebecca ruben is going to wear to the ice capades. then after about 2.5 minutes i get insanely bored and say...
me: 'okay, rebecca looks great. i'm just going to 1) make myself some tea, 2) make a quick phone call, or 3) i think i hear the baby'
then i exit and usually they have had enough interaction to keep playing by themselves.
yet just the other day as i stared into my baby girls baby blues (praying they stay blue!) i thought, this really is my last baby (out my tummy anyway). i am soooo in love with this child-- its crazy. whats even crazier is to think i could ever be mad or frustrated with her, like i am every other minute with the 4 and 3 yr old. but it was at the beach on wed as i watched lily and oz play with the blackwell and buchanan boys i realized that next year lils will be in kindergarten and life will be much different for us. this time of having 3 kids at home is
numero dos- i really feel like this should be number one, simply because of the supreme importance of it, and the way it impacts/shapes/defines every area of my life. i'm not even sure how to put a title to it, but ultimately it involves god, faith, joy and me. its obvious to most that the perils of parenthood can veil
so here's to 2010- i pray its a year of lasting change for my family and yours... i'd love to hear what y'all striving for. i'm always looking for something new to tack on to my list...