Tuesday, January 1, 2008
the boss turns 1
to think that one year ago i spent the better part of the day lightly laboring till about 9 pm when things picked up. got to the hospital about 10:30 and 12:46am oliver cain rodgers came forth with much, much pain. we missed the new years baby by a mere 46 minutes. oh well.
i know i spend a lot of time writing about lily, call it the firstborn, call it my baby girl, call it her age, call it just her... whatever the case may be she preoccupies quite a bit of my thought life. sometimes i wonder if that's a good thing.
but tonight as i reflect on a year with my son i feel an upwelling of sheer joy and pride. his little smile, his deep brown eyes, his belly laugh... his little existence is such a breath of fresh air-an experience or emotion i could never have dreamed up. i really cannot imagine life without him. for whatever reason i have so few concerns or fears about his upbringing, i just feel content each day with him. i pray that this "easiness" will transcend into a well-adjusted, laid back little guy. time will tell.
oz really is still such a little guy, and since he cannot communicate in the way that lily can, a lot goes unnoticed, consequently a lot of the intimacy that i have with her i don't have with him. of course that will change dramatically this next year as he continues to come into his own. and i truly, truly look forward to getting to know him in the way i've come to know lily.
brandon once wrote that lily is his joy, oliver his pride and i, the love of his life.
i'm not sure he could've expressed it any clearer. tonight i undoubtedly feel the same.
so, happy birthday little buddy. you truly are the noor of my eye.