i'm not trying to brag, but its possible we are doing something right. this afternoon as the kids and i were on a run back from farmers lily said the most incredible thing. instead of heading home we decided to stop by some neighborhood friends house. so as we ran past our street lily said,"momma, we have to go that way." and i replied, "no, lily, we are going this other way to stop by carter and susans house. she didn't say anything and so we kept running and i missed the turn for their house. "whoops, we went the wrong way" i said as i turned the stroller around. and as we were walking up the hill to their house i tuned into what lily was saying cause she was trying to spit something out. "sometimes," she paused, "if you pray and ask Jesus, he will show you the right way." astounded, i stopped the stroller, leaned over with tears in my eyes, and said "lily, that makes me so happy to hear you say that, you are so right. who taught you that about Jesus?" she paused, perplexed, and said, "you!"
that's all it took- she floored me. really. it couldn't have come at a more perfect time as we just had some house guests leave. (quick shout out to the pollards- they are awesome house guests- super clean, tidy, took us out to taco temple- took amazing family photos of us- just a blessing through and through- not to mention their kids are not only super cute, and well-dressed- but very sweet, tender boys)- which leads me to my next point... and why lily's comment couldn't have come at a more perfect time.
i am aware that lily is very much a girl- it isn't just b/c of her natural inclination for dresses, skirts, high heels and the color fuchsia. its deeper than that. she is moody, contrary and indecisive- (or as my mom says, passionate, discerning and selective) all things i know about her, but seemed to glare at me having another kid around all weekend. which all leads me to often wonder, am i doing this right?
and though i know the answer is probably no, not totally- as no one is, moments like we shared today, make it all worth it. i'll take the passion even if it often comes with fury.